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Keep on Trucking

I'm still trying to get use to the fact that my dad is gone. Is a strange thing for me to say that. I really wish I had a conversation with him. I really wish that I had gotten what I needed most in the world. I wish I had gotten my "I love you". In my heart I think he did love me I wish he would have said it to me. By the same token I wish that my fear of him rejecting me wouldn't have stopped me from telling him all the time that I loved him more. I wish he would have called me just to shoot the breeze when he was bored. I wish we had one picture of just him and I. It's too late for would'ves and could'ves but God I wish.
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What Now

Life is completely unpredictable, you get use to a certain way of life then 💥 boom everything changes. That's what happened to me and that's why I've started this blog because I have no one to talk to about how I feel.  I'll start by telling you what has me so messed up,  you see I've been on this 🌎 Earth a long time 50 years to be exact. You have to admit that that's a long time ⌛️  and for  49 and 11 months I  was my father's daughter that was until December 23, 2021 when suddenly without a warning my father passed away. My strong hardworking father was gone and I have to live in a world that he no longer walks in and I don't know how to deal with that. It hurts me to my core but for so many reasons. How could this have happened? How can I fix a broken heart that seems to break even more everyday 
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